Friday

Good Morning...
Well nothing exciting has happened during the night...same old quietness...but one thing that was cool though...I went all night without chewing(tobacco that is), if I can keep this up then I'll be tobacco free when I come to visit..No withdrawls yet...So I'm going to go for another walk outside, and then deliver some mail to the residents doors...then climb back on the computer and watch some videos that I have saved as favorites on youtube...
I hope you have a good day at work...I'll be good today too(it's hard though to get into trouble when I am sleeping)
I love you Mom,
Love Sarah

Today

Well I'm about to go to sleep so I'll be able to stay awake all night at work...Today's been really good..I went down again to the humane society(last night when I went was fun), so now I"m ready to grab a bite to eat, and lay down...
I"ll write more tonight from work as things start happining,
I love you

Tuesday NIght

Hello,
I won't be able to get on the computer tommorow, but I"ll be able to call you mom(and dad) tomorrow night...so I thought I'd blog now..Its been quiet here...I'm so sick of a certain person(not Lisa) who say that I'm rude and mean, and a inconsiderate person, I'm about the nicest person you can meet, I think of others alot more so than myself, all I want to do is please people. I'm so glad that I know you and Dad now, I know that no matter how much I get punished from you two, I know that I am loved, and you love me for who I am, something that one person in my life does not accept( again I"m not talking about Lisa), I broke down crying so hard, I almost lost myself, and almost put my hand thru a window..Lisa had to hold me until all I could do was crumple down...I wanted to talk to you, but it was too late to call(10:00pm your time), but all I can do now, is think of when I get to be with my parents, you two have me now..brat and all :)
I'll try to be a good girl for you and Dad...only a few times will you have to spank me or send me to the corner(or what-ever else in punishment you have in mind)...I better go for now..I wish I was there mom so you can tuck me into bed(will you do that mom? Please?) I love you..Talk to you tomorrow..Good Night

Tuesday Morning

Good Morning,
I woke up this morning in a great mood..I just put in the oven the chocolite chip muffins( I wish I knew how to send you one mom..:)
Today I"m going to work out for awhile at the gym(at work, if we work out for a certain amount of days during the week we get an extra $10.00) Then I"m going to come home and maybe watch a movie and call my friend in Oklahoma, and then call my mom and dad tonight..I love them both...I wish I could send myself in a envelope to them and show them how much they mean to me and show them how much I love them...
Well I'm going to jump off my blog..so I"ll blog tomorrow night..
Love,
Sarah Ann

Today..Monday

Hello,
Today was a excellent day...I spent most of it cleaning my room, and car..took my self out to Olive Garden Resturaunt..then on my way home, I got to talk to my dad, and when I got inside my home, I got to talk to my momma...
I'm proud of my self..I've behaved so far, no swear words(although I almost slipped when I was talking to dad)..
So tonight, I"m going to watch the show In the heat of the night that I have been taping, and go thru some mail, and spend time with my cat.
I love you Mom and Dad,
Good-night

Feeling better

Hello,
I am doing much better after talking to my mom and dad this morning, and getting some sleep. Today is going to be boring.. you know, clean room and house, cook,etc...I may go down to the humane society to spend some time with the animals..don't know yet..its just boring as heck now...at least I have a few days off now until Thursday...
I'm going to get off the computer now...Take care Mom,
Hugs and kisses,

Being down..

There is one thing I hate about life is you never know when depression is gonna hit ya...I was doing fine..then in the middle of the night..it hits..sitting here at work with no one to talk to, doesn't help either...Lots of things are running in my head..am I really loved? Why am I here(on earth< I know why at work)...am I really a nice person, and most of all what is wrong with me? I love my friends and my mom and dad....so why can't I be happy all the time and not cry? I've never thought about suicide(that is why I watch the suicide videos, somehow they make me feel better..)
I just wish that January would be here like, now..so I can be with my mom and dad..which is what I need now..I wish I could be sitting inbetween them and I could feel the love from both of them( which I do now but more so then)
I gotta get back to work...Mom, when you read this I love you so much..and dad I love youtoo, please don't ever leave me..and I'll do my best to make you two proud..
Love you