This weekend

Well not much is happening right now..I've put up a new pic(well taken last year) of me and a new pic of Lisa taken last week.
I was down for awhile...my stupid birth mom is giving me trouble again..I'm so good to her, and then she turns around and treats me like hell...I don't get it..I should have never tried to find her in the first place...she is half the reason I have problems now...I do things I shouldnt, just to make me feel better, I'm not talking drugs like marjana(sp), its something else...the only one who knows what I'm doing is Lisa, for now, then I come and visit you and Dad, I'll tell you everything. Lisa tries to help me on things but is clueless half the time...Like you know, I had turned to watching suicide videos to make me feel better, but with your help, I don't watch those..now its something different...
I wish I could leave everything here and move to be with you and Dad, but right now all I can do is talk to you, and in January come to visit, I know that I am loved by you and Dad, and Dad wll set me strait(and you too) on many things...
I guess I gotta get back to work....
I love you Mom alot, I'm thinking and praying for you all the time...kisses from your daughter