My feelings

I'm back to feeling depressed again..no matter how much I try to shake it it won't go away..I feel like everything is against me(I'm getting tired of what is going on here at work...its hard to have a girlfriend as your boss..at least I don't have to worry about arguing about work at home..I just shut her mouth if she tries)
All I know is that I want to get better...this depression wears me out so bad...I was getting up set over nothing...I just turned around and hit a cement pole as hard as I could to get the anger out..didn't feel any pain though...but now the side of my hand is swollen and bruised.
Good news though, is that I'm going to be mentoring new volunteers at the Humane Society! I'm going to teach them how to properly care for the dogs,etc... I can't wait to start that!
I love you Mom, and it won't be too long till I get to come to see you and Daddy.
Love you, take care, and good night

Good night

Mom,
I read the article, and I think what it was saying was, what I earn(or win) is not mine but actually God's(am I right?)
I'm also sorry about the word I wrote on Myspace....I was just being funny(not to mention tired also), but I'm sory if it offended you....Are you going to punish me for it? :(
But I do love you Mom, and I hope you have a good weekend..
Love,
your daughter Sarah

Mom

Mom,
I'm sorry..I have forgotten what you wanted me to look up...I found a local charity that helps the homeless people have a thanksgiving dinner on Thanksgiving...I gave $50.00 to the charity. This is the first time that I have ever given to a charity besides the Humane society...
Please tell me again Mom what you wanted me to look up and I'll do it and write a blog about it.
I love you Mom and talk to you soon..
Love your daughter Sarah

Today..Monday

Hello Mom,
Today I took myself to the Zoo(I'll send you and Dad my flickr link so you can see them,as soon as get them up on the computer)
It was a beautiful day here, so much of the animals were out. I hadn't been to the zoo in who knows how long...
Its now been 1 week and 2 days no tobaccoo, and also I've stoped using those pills I told you about...not sleeping as good, but getting there..
So by the time I get to your place, I"ll have had all my addictions kicked(but now I gotta work on my language, before you and Dad get ahold of me)
Have a good week mom and I love you..I hope I'm making you proud of me
Love,
Me

I love you

Mom,
I love you very much and am being good...Everything is going good so far...
I hope you have a good weekend and hope to talk to you soon,
I love you,
Hugs,
Love Sarah :)

Today

It has now been four days sense I quit tobaccoo...I think I've gotten over the withdrawls, but its still going to be hard..but I'm doing it...
I've slowed down with the urges to put something in my mouth, I was getting tired of eating all the time..now its back to normal.
My mood has been good, I've been more cheery, etc. I'm proud of myself..
I hope your doing good Mom, and I love you very much.
Love your daughter

Today

Today was a excellent day! I was born again into Christ...thanks to my Daddy, who helped me.
After I got off the phone with him, I took a long walk..then had lunch with Lisa, then I went grocery shopping, and am going for another walk with Lisa, and then staying home.
Its been about 48 hours or so with no tobacco, its been really hard, but I'm doing it..I made a promise to myself, my mom and Dad and to Lisa, but most inportantly to God, that I"m never going back to chew again...I also cut that pill in half that I told you about Mom, and going to wing myself off of it..I'm slowly changing Mom, but I"m still going to be an little brat deep down..
I've been thinking of you all day, and I love you very much( I hope I don't make you upset enough to take me "fishing" when I'm there..
Talk to you soon Mom,
GOod night