Today..Monday

Hello Mom,
Today I took myself to the Zoo(I'll send you and Dad my flickr link so you can see them,as soon as get them up on the computer)
It was a beautiful day here, so much of the animals were out. I hadn't been to the zoo in who knows how long...
Its now been 1 week and 2 days no tobaccoo, and also I've stoped using those pills I told you about...not sleeping as good, but getting there..
So by the time I get to your place, I"ll have had all my addictions kicked(but now I gotta work on my language, before you and Dad get ahold of me)
Have a good week mom and I love you..I hope I'm making you proud of me
Love,
Me

I love you

Mom,
I love you very much and am being good...Everything is going good so far...
I hope you have a good weekend and hope to talk to you soon,
I love you,
Hugs,
Love Sarah :)

Today

It has now been four days sense I quit tobaccoo...I think I've gotten over the withdrawls, but its still going to be hard..but I'm doing it...
I've slowed down with the urges to put something in my mouth, I was getting tired of eating all the time..now its back to normal.
My mood has been good, I've been more cheery, etc. I'm proud of myself..
I hope your doing good Mom, and I love you very much.
Love your daughter

Today

Today was a excellent day! I was born again into Christ...thanks to my Daddy, who helped me.
After I got off the phone with him, I took a long walk..then had lunch with Lisa, then I went grocery shopping, and am going for another walk with Lisa, and then staying home.
Its been about 48 hours or so with no tobacco, its been really hard, but I'm doing it..I made a promise to myself, my mom and Dad and to Lisa, but most inportantly to God, that I"m never going back to chew again...I also cut that pill in half that I told you about Mom, and going to wing myself off of it..I'm slowly changing Mom, but I"m still going to be an little brat deep down..
I've been thinking of you all day, and I love you very much( I hope I don't make you upset enough to take me "fishing" when I'm there..
Talk to you soon Mom,
GOod night

Today

Well, I feel alot better now, that I got all the crying out of my system, and that I told you Mom, what I have been doing...And it makes me happy to know that you and Dad are here for me... I'm about to heat up some dinner(well kinda dinner...frozen pizza), what Dad said you two were having sounded good.
I'm still feeling ancy...but doing better...I played with my cat to help the jitterness get out of me, I also took a long walk too...
I'll let you go for now, though.....Like I said I can't wait to fly to your place....I also can't wait to be hugged by you and Dad..that is what I need now..
But I love you Mom, very much..I hope to hear from you soon...
Kisses and Hugs..

This weekend

Well not much is happening right now..I've put up a new pic(well taken last year) of me and a new pic of Lisa taken last week.
I was down for awhile...my stupid birth mom is giving me trouble again..I'm so good to her, and then she turns around and treats me like hell...I don't get it..I should have never tried to find her in the first place...she is half the reason I have problems now...I do things I shouldnt, just to make me feel better, I'm not talking drugs like marjana(sp), its something else...the only one who knows what I'm doing is Lisa, for now, then I come and visit you and Dad, I'll tell you everything. Lisa tries to help me on things but is clueless half the time...Like you know, I had turned to watching suicide videos to make me feel better, but with your help, I don't watch those..now its something different...
I wish I could leave everything here and move to be with you and Dad, but right now all I can do is talk to you, and in January come to visit, I know that I am loved by you and Dad, and Dad wll set me strait(and you too) on many things...
I guess I gotta get back to work....
I love you Mom alot, I'm thinking and praying for you all the time...kisses from your daughter

Today

Dear Mom,
I had a great day today..I was at a meeting all day at the Humane Society, doing a refresher course on dog walking, cat and dog showing, dog training,etc...I actually paid attention(usually if something goes on for a while I gotta fidget or draw or zoom into space)..but I didn't this time.
So tonight when I finish this blog, I"m going to make a burrito, call my friend April in Oklahoma, and then go to bed..Tomorrow I'll go out for breakfast, do some laundry,and call Dad and you, then go to bed early cause I work Thurday mornings from 4-8am, then that starts my work week.
I hope you have a good night Mom, I love you very much...
When you get a chance Mom can you write me? About anything you want..
Good night