Today

Today was a excellent day! I was born again into Christ...thanks to my Daddy, who helped me.
After I got off the phone with him, I took a long walk..then had lunch with Lisa, then I went grocery shopping, and am going for another walk with Lisa, and then staying home.
Its been about 48 hours or so with no tobacco, its been really hard, but I'm doing it..I made a promise to myself, my mom and Dad and to Lisa, but most inportantly to God, that I"m never going back to chew again...I also cut that pill in half that I told you about Mom, and going to wing myself off of it..I'm slowly changing Mom, but I"m still going to be an little brat deep down..
I've been thinking of you all day, and I love you very much( I hope I don't make you upset enough to take me "fishing" when I'm there..
Talk to you soon Mom,
GOod night

Today

Well, I feel alot better now, that I got all the crying out of my system, and that I told you Mom, what I have been doing...And it makes me happy to know that you and Dad are here for me... I'm about to heat up some dinner(well kinda dinner...frozen pizza), what Dad said you two were having sounded good.
I'm still feeling ancy...but doing better...I played with my cat to help the jitterness get out of me, I also took a long walk too...
I'll let you go for now, though.....Like I said I can't wait to fly to your place....I also can't wait to be hugged by you and Dad..that is what I need now..
But I love you Mom, very much..I hope to hear from you soon...
Kisses and Hugs..

This weekend

Well not much is happening right now..I've put up a new pic(well taken last year) of me and a new pic of Lisa taken last week.
I was down for awhile...my stupid birth mom is giving me trouble again..I'm so good to her, and then she turns around and treats me like hell...I don't get it..I should have never tried to find her in the first place...she is half the reason I have problems now...I do things I shouldnt, just to make me feel better, I'm not talking drugs like marjana(sp), its something else...the only one who knows what I'm doing is Lisa, for now, then I come and visit you and Dad, I'll tell you everything. Lisa tries to help me on things but is clueless half the time...Like you know, I had turned to watching suicide videos to make me feel better, but with your help, I don't watch those..now its something different...
I wish I could leave everything here and move to be with you and Dad, but right now all I can do is talk to you, and in January come to visit, I know that I am loved by you and Dad, and Dad wll set me strait(and you too) on many things...
I guess I gotta get back to work....
I love you Mom alot, I'm thinking and praying for you all the time...kisses from your daughter

Today

Dear Mom,
I had a great day today..I was at a meeting all day at the Humane Society, doing a refresher course on dog walking, cat and dog showing, dog training,etc...I actually paid attention(usually if something goes on for a while I gotta fidget or draw or zoom into space)..but I didn't this time.
So tonight when I finish this blog, I"m going to make a burrito, call my friend April in Oklahoma, and then go to bed..Tomorrow I'll go out for breakfast, do some laundry,and call Dad and you, then go to bed early cause I work Thurday mornings from 4-8am, then that starts my work week.
I hope you have a good night Mom, I love you very much...
When you get a chance Mom can you write me? About anything you want..
Good night

Random thoughts

I havn't blogged in awhile so here I go..
Yesterday I went to the Humane Society to pick out a dog to take to Katu studio to be pet of the week, It was a mad house when I got there, sense we were having our telethon from the Humane society and Katu. I found a dog, which is a beagle named Maggie May. So I took the dog today to Katu. very good dog but it jumped onto my lap while I was driving 32...not good..
Here is a story for you:
A couple of years ago I was inside a cage with a lovley dog, the dog lunged at my face to give me a kiss and my head(I was sitting down) hit against the concrete wall, so hard that it knocked me unconcious(sp), I don't know how long I was out but when I came to, the dog was staring right in my face...so I got up and left.
Another time I was there, I was trying to get out of a cage without the dog coming with me. The cages have something like a doggie door that you can close if you want the dog either in the fromt of the cage or in back, so i got the dog infront of that door, and ran to jump down to slide thru the door, well I missed the door and hit my knee on the wall, so hard that I actually saw stars for a bit...
Well that is all for now..I hope you have a good day Mom and what do you want me to write about next?
I love you

No Santa Paws

I just found out that I don't get to be Santa Paws this year!!!!!!!
I'm so bummed out I was looking forward to it....oh well..
I'll have my pictures taken professionaly so you and Dad can have a recent one of your daughter.
I love you talk to you soon..

Nothing New

Hello,
Well nothing new has happend to me....other than being sick for a little while, but am feeling better now...
I'm keeping my fingers crossed that on Nov. 9th, I get to play Santa Paws again this year(I've been doing this for 3 years now)..Its fun to dress up like Santa, and instead of kids(which they do come but not as often) You have animals on your lap. and also their families too...Two years ago someone brought all of their animals to have their picture taken with Santa(me), that even included a horse, who tried to eat my beard off..then almost ate the hat off, very friendly horse.
Well I gotta get back to work. I hope your work settles down for you Mom and that you can relax some..
I love you very much